Wednesday, May 4, 2011

One Year

This is such a bittersweet post for me to write. One year ago today, my life changed forever. I became a mother. Rich and I took the giant leap as a family from couple to trio. I underwent the biggest physical accomplishment of my life, and was rewarded with a precious 7lb 1oz bundle of baby girl. Not a day has gone by since her birth that Lucy hasn't brought a smile to my face. This year has been a roller coaster of ups and downs from the insanely long labor to the colic, reflux and food sensitivities to the snuggles and giggles, and all those firsts. First bath, first smile, first food, first plane ride, first bruise, first laugh, first tooth, first crawl, first words.

My life is more different that I could have imagined. I didn't think I would still be breastfeeding at this point. I couldn't imagine my body being taken over by another creature for so long, but alas, here we are with no plans to stop. I didn't think I'd have a one year old in bed next to me every night, and wrapped onto my body for many hours a week. Now I couldn't imagine her being anywhere else. I didn't know the feeling of heart-stopping panic I would feel every time I check her breathing and it takes a second or two to feel her chest rise and fall. I didn't know how the smile of such a tiny being could make time stand still and my heart melt. I couldn't fathom that I would gladly forfeit sleep to hold my baby, that the middle of the night bonding, those tiny fingers curled around mine and she nursed back to sleep, would be some of my favorite moments. Yes, we all know that parents love their children, but that knowledge is nothing compared to actually feeling it for yourself.

Before I had her, I read a cliche that says "Having a child is like forever living with a piece of your heart outside your body." I've never read truer words. This year has gone by in the blink of an eye, although I can honestly say I've made a conscious effort to enjoy every single day of this journey. Some days are harder than others, and the joyful moment is a sense of relief at seeing her face peaceful in sleep at the end of the day while other days are full of laughter and play. Part of me would love to be able to rewind to this time last year and live this all over again, but I'm also looking forward to what the next year brings. I feel more secure in myself as a person and in myself as a mother with each passing day.


Happy First Birthday Lucy Susannah!

Then: about one hour old

And now: one year old:


Monday, May 2, 2011

Rain Rain Go Away

Edited to add pics. Hope they work this time!
Geez, last week was tornados all across the state and this week there is serious flooding. Our main interstate is closed and underwater.

Here are a couple of pics from Vilonia, the our hardest hit town from last week's
deadly storms.





We drove through Vilonia on our way to Fayetteville this past weekend. We went up for the 10th annual crawfish boil that Rich's friends host. The first year they had the crawfish boil, I went with my college roommate and didn't even know Richard at the time. She was friends with some of his friends, but he and I never met. Small world! We left Lucy at home with my parents and had a great time eating spicy cajun food, sampling adult beverages and playing Baggo and horseshoes.

I can't believe it is May already. It is really bittersweet for me that my baby girl is going to turn one in two short weeks. I keep reminiscing about this time last year and reflecting on all the changes this year has brought us. It's been the best and most stressful time of my life.